A Mortal's Plight

Some times i feel invincible ,
Some times i feel indestructible,
Feels like i can do anything....
Some times we make decisions without our consciousness..
always leading to believing godlessness..
Its summer time , why the hell am i still coding..
while others are enjoying..
we have these studies and its stress..
as if these are not enough ..
girl friend and her wishes to address..
i am always on a war with the pressure ,
just trying not to let in as i am a fresher...
these are enough to screw your world..
Now i never cry or complain..
started to accept life as it is the hurricane..
i don't need a doctor i don't need a check up..
just need to spend time with myself for a setup ..
I couldn't sleep, so i kept thinking,
i couldn't face the reality, so i kept dreaming.
I always thought i am  the architect of my life..
but now i began to understand i am just a small puppet playing on your  fife..
you left me as a mortal in the portal of immortals
i am not afraid of dying,
but afraid of not alive enough of living..
At the top now and i never come down.. always stays focused and hell bound..
never forget where i came from .. that's where i was born from ..
i am not a writer or narrator.. just an guy keeping his feeling on a piece of paper..for which i am the proprietor..
Some times i feel invincible ,
Some times i feel un-destructible,
Feels like i can do anything....
but then it just occurs to me yet again  that i am just a mortal in this portal of immortals...